Thyroid Good, I Think

So, my lovelies, it's been a few weeks since I talked about my thyroid. I did have the biopsy done last week. About several needles were jabbed in, two were for the anaesthetic. My throat was a bit tender and it bruised a little after, but nothing to really write home about.

Today, I received the call that the 1cm nodule was BENIGN. That was great news for Sprinkles; however, my primary care recommended that I go to an Ears, Nose, Throat doctor to check out why there was some extra bleeding in my throat based on the samples found. I thought it was because they were jabbing around since they needed a longer needle at some point.

I made the appointment today for next Tuesday afternoon after the 4th of July holiday. This will make 4 medical appointments on the schedule for July already. Sigh. Just another appointment on my calendar. I pray for more patience...not patients. ;p

xo

Thyroid Good, I Think

OMG...Our Network

This is unprecedented I know, but I had to gripe about work. For a week now we've had service interruptions at work. E-mails up and down. Applications working intermittently or not at all. A big cluster fuck happened where one of our hubs is located. Not pretty. Poor Tawny's husband has had to deal with it, too.

Today is my first day at work since Thursday and TWO of the applications I work with are not working well. I guess I should count myself lucky that the third one is working. It just makes the day go long as I work from home today.

My aftercare chemo meds are wearing off -- my brain is still fuzzy. TV doesn't hold appeal. Same crap playing on TV. Ugh. I took my blood pressure pill for dessert after lunch. That's good, eh?

Oh -- lookee. I have conference call in 2.5 hours. Something too look forward to this afternoon...

OMG...Our Network

And Now My Thyroid

Things are going great from the cancer front. Progressing mighty nicely as a matter of fact. Woohoo!!

Well -- now I have an ultrasound appointment to check out the nodule seen when I went to the emergency room in April when I had issues with my port. The scan of my heart included a little nodule up in my thyroid. My ultrasound is next Tuesday.

Going to doctor's appointments is the norm for now. I just make the appointments and try to mitigate any kind of side effects from the chemotherapy and address other items as they come up. Face it, I am going to be 40 years old in January. This is the best time to reset my body. I have some aggressive health goals for myself as I progress from cancer.

Yes, I am bummed about the thyroid appointment. All I can do is go.

And Now My Thyroid

Tick Tock

The word of the day is Survive - 3 day weekend ahead, so just need to get through today. Have been working overtime all week and will have overtime and craziness all next week. So for today...just survive.

Tick Tock

Eh?

I hate being worried about people - because when I am worried it means there is a reason to worry and someone may be in trouble. Financial, health, mental? I would much rather everyone was fine and I didn't have a reason to worry.

Funny thing - I know people are worried about me and that irritates me too...not because they are worried (that just means I have friends who care) but what irritates me is the I have given them a reason to worry. Just can't win...

Eh?

Gee Y N?

Some people reading this may know that I've been having a lot of issues...I have "female" issues (see how I travel back to the '50s to talk about this) that are contributing to my anemia problems. At least that is that they believe is causing the problems. So I got an injection last week that is to stop my cycles for 3 months in order to help me prolong the time between now and when I will need surgery. I also had to have a biopsy in order to rule out any cancer or else the surgery could not be postponed. The biggest reason I need to postpone surgery is that after being laid off for over a year I am finally working but do not have any sick time or FMLA to protect my job or my income. Nice catch-22 for me.

Okay so here is the breakdown of how my Dr. visit went on Monday:

I tried to tell dr that i was still VERY BAD (things I don't want to spell out - pretty sure you can figure this out on your own) and they may want to rethink doing the exam and was told that it's no problem...just a day in the life at the GYN...

"we have these little pads to put beneath you" hahahahahaha

then when she saw how bad it was - "oh your life isn't fun is it?" NO SH!T “Lindsay can you get me some more pads?” and once more “Lindsay can you get me about 4 more pads?”

"how long has it been this way?" - since april 12th - "really - for 30 days?" - yes thats what I said - "for 30 DAYS?" - yes - "don't you feel weak" - HELL YES I FEEL WEAK but what are you gonna do?

so now she isn't sure she got enough material (i can't say tissue - it's yucky) MATERIAL to actually do the biopsy

After the exam the Dr wanted to run some more blood tests - thyroid and iron count - when her PA was taking blood the conversation went like this... "wow that's some crazy amount your bleeding, I don't know how you do it" so I asked her what was my alternative? things have to be done I can't just curl up in a ball and stay in bed all day no matter how much I want to



So just waiting to get the results of all the tests



- THEN IEZZI'S (my GP) OFFICE CALLED

I went for blood tests about 2 weeks ago and i have been trying to get the results of that test - well now they want me to go for more blood tests - one of the tests ordered wasn't done - and THEN we'll make an office appointment for you to come in and go over them. UHHMMM no I think I'll deal with my GYN for now thank you very much....

Gee Y N?

Aggravated

I suppose I am letting the aggravation that has been building up within me finally seep out. Having the appointment tomorrow with the therapist is giving me permission. I'd like to think so anyway.

Last Friday I did some power grocery shopping as I need to prepare for the next couple of weeks during my chemo time. After my chemo this Friday, I won't feel up to shopping. You know the routine by now.

On Saturday, I walked for two miles with Kristey. The walk was dicey in some parts, but we stopped and I drank liquids. Even though we started our trek at 7:30am, it was hotter than Hades in the wooded park. When I got home, I was wiped out. I ended up sleeping on the couch all day which aggravated me. I had intended to do chores like cleaning and laundry but wasn't up to it at all. How could two miles take me down the rest of the day? No, I don't need you to answer that. I've had a few people already tell me why. Sigh. I drank coffee to watch Betty White on Saturday Night Live. Betty was awesome in all her skits!

On Sunday, I did five loads of laundry before noon. Yes, that means I started at 7-ish. I washed the floors and cleaned some, too. That made me tired again...which aggravated me. My current physical limitations are wearing on me something awful. In my mind, I can move mountains, but my body says I can just kick sand around. This is disheartening.

I woke up today to some other news online regarding a friend. Well, someone else gave the news, but it was about that person. I can't expect much from a person who is morally depraved and deprived. Still - unexpected news can still be weird to read before 6am. Did it aggravate me? I'll let you guess.

Now to Tawny who had a doctor's appointment this afternoon. I tried calling her on her home phone and also on her regular cell in the early evening. I sent her two text messages about an hour or two later. No responses. Yes, that was aggravating. I hope she is okay.

So now I am getting ready to watch some sitcoms to make me cheery. I may let you know about my shrinky dink appointment. On my other blog, I will definitely. Now on to sitcoms.

Hugs,
S

Aggravated

UGH!

So that's what projectile means...

Not sure what's going on - I think I have food poisoning - just want to go home and sleep. Luckily I'm leaving at 5PM today instead of the 6PM we were scheduled for. It's end of the month billing time so can't really afford to miss any of this week.

Sigh.

UGH!

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Some days just deserve a BLECH!

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APRIL F*CKING FOOL'S DAY

This day just keeps getting better and better...

1) Passcode - I forgot my passcode to my laptop...completely! Thanks to my chemo influenced brain, I couldn't remember it to save my life and I used it at least twice yesterday. Aargh! I had to get help from someone at work to be able to log in until I get back to work on Monday.

2) Aunt/Uncle - My aunt is spending the night tonight so she can accompany me to my chemo appointment tomorrow; however, she will not be staying the night tomorrow night BECAUSE my uncle wants her to attend a church thing with him. Really?! I need her the most on Friday night. So from now on, I will leave them out of any future chemos. My aunt will be out of the country for Chemos #3 & #4 and I kinda have those covered, but will call a cab to/from if I have to. She was going to accompany me for #5 & #6. I definitely take a cab for those last two. I don't want to burden them any more than I have to -- it is a long day and jockeying times and rides gets hairy with their schedules. Know this about me -- if I start to feel like a burden or anything to you, I will go at it alone. It will not be the first time I've been alone to do things and I doubt it will be the last.

EVENING UPDATE: We discussed it at dinner and they capitulated. My aunt is staying Thursday and Friday.

3) Medical TV show - As if I don't feel bad enough with my Stage III ovarian cancer and the severity of the cure, I get to watch medical professionals say that eating parsley and celery are good to prevent ovarian cancer by 30% because of the flavonoids. That is not what pissed me off. The female gyno on the show says that ovarian cancer is one of the deadliest cancers and for the 35,000 women diagnosed each year about 15,000 died. Are you fucking kidding me?!

So Happy April Fucking Fool's!

APRIL F*CKING FOOL'S DAY